Words

There's times when words 
hit you harder than gravity. 

Every syllable strikes you 
so effortlessly between your eyes
and every single vowel punches you 
straight in the face.
 
But those consonants... 

They can just tear straight 
through your damn flesh... 

1/4 Life Crisis

So… I haven’t just written and vented for awhile.
Lately it’s been hitting me more and more that I need to make a decision with my life.
The decision being “kids”.

I keep questioning my purpose in the world. Am I really meant to procreate?
Or is being childless best for my mental and physical health?

Basically I’m having a fucking quarter-life crisis on the daily at this point and I’m terrified.

One part of me loves this independent, free, and mildly careless life. I mean shit… I’m free to travel, work, and enjoy life without any real commitments (And I kind of like that.)

Another part of me is craving some sort of purpose… some sort of mark to be left on this planet… a reason to be alive…

I guess right now I’m just hopeful that time/fate decides it for me (Because I apparently can’t decide 100% either way and it pisses me off).

If anyone gets to this point of the post… thank you for being here to read my thoughts. 🙂