September 2023 – Page 2

Hibiscus

September 11, 2023 by Ash Ochoa Poetry Categories: My PicturesTags: Flowers, Hibiscus, Nature, Photography 2 Comments

Nail in a Coffin

They say ending a chapter is like putting a nail in a coffin. It's done, final, over. 
But what if the wood splinters and cracks in the process? 
The once definite and absolute finale now stands in disrepair. There's fragments hanging, pieces missing, and it's unsuitable to be laid to rest in peace. 

However, there's still a choice to be made... 
Do you try to fix all that has been broken and bury it at ease? 
Or do you just let the whole thing go down without a second glance?

September 8, 2023October 16, 2023 by Ash Ochoa Poetry Categories: My PoetryTags: Chapters, Endings, Peace, Thoughts 1 Comment

Exhausted

If I'm being honest with myself, 
I'm tired. 

I'm tired of splitting up fights 
between the thoughts in my mind, 
and the redundancy of my habits  
that are anything but fine. 

I'm tired of living for the days 
I think are worth waiting, 
just to see them come and go 
as fast as I'm fading. 

I'm tired of the facade 
that I'm feeling okay, 
when inside my strength 
has begun to decay. 

I'm tired of the cycling 
through the lies in my head, 
and the words I have spoken 
that I wish were never said. 

But now I've lied once more 
and said that I'm just tired...  

When exhausted was the word 
I should've used when this started.

September 7, 2023 by Ash Ochoa Poetry Categories: My PoetryTags: BPD, Exhausted, fucked, Me, Mental, Poetry, Tired 12 Comments

Regret

Regret hangs like 
a cloud above me. 

It overtakes me 
with nausea as it  
opens up to expel 
sour and sickening 
drops of doom 
into my pores. 

It racks my body 
with waves of heat, 
forceful and deafening, 
as it clings 
and holds 
and follows... 

Only parting from me 
the moment 
I'm brave enough 
to face it.